🌱 Trusting the Process: Moving Toward Implantation

It’s been a while since I’ve written about this journey. If I’m being honest, I wasn’t even sure where to begin again.

Since my last update, I had my polyp removal surgery—and I’m grateful to share that it was cancer free. From there, we officially entered a new cycle, one that moves us closer to implantation.

This past week has been filled with lab work and ultrasounds. On Friday, my ultrasound showed fluid in my uterus. Naturally, my heart sank. But by today—Sunday—the fluid was gone, and my uterine lining had thickened compared to Friday. That alone felt like a small answered prayer.

I’ll be back again on Tuesday for more labs and ultrasounds. The goal now is to give my lining a few more days to thicken to where they’d like it to be before moving forward. More waiting—but this time, waiting with reassurance instead of fear.

Throughout this process, I’ve leaned heavily on prayer, grounding rituals, and quiet faith. I’ve been wearing my stone bracelets—rhyondite, moonstone, and amethyst—as physical reminders to stay calm and centered. I repeat my mantras daily, especially the one I’ve kept as a screensaver on both my watch and my phone:

“Trust the process. God is working.”
“Hope in the Lord.” — Psalm 27:14

I truly believe that if God has carried me this far, then He has already laid the plans ahead. My job now is to remain hopeful and thankful for all He is doing—and all He has already done.

This journey hasn’t been easy. There are moments when it feels heavy—especially when so many people around me are pregnant. I’m genuinely happy for them, but I’ve also wrestled with the quiet what ifs and what about me moments.

Through therapy, journaling, mantras, faith, and a lot of hope, I’ve learned how to reset my thoughts and keep moving forward. I trust that God has His hands on me. He sees what I cannot see. And whatever the outcome, I will remain grateful and allow my faith to carry me into the next season.